Doppelganger

Daily Prompt
Doppelgänger

 

Curled up in a chair in the hospital room, I watched the “me” laying on the bed sleep for several days. The feeling of being pulled towards the ‘me’ on the bed came and went. I was never more hopeful than the last time it happened. I was within inches of my body when the sensation ceased. I grabbed for my body but, before I could reach it, I was back in the chair, frustrated but hopeful. That was the closest I had been to rejoining. I could feel the will to live.

Why am I separated? What is keeping me from waking? I thought back to all the movies about people crossing over. It didn’t make sense. Wouldn’t I be the one having experiences that would keep me from wanting to come back? There was no tunnel, no light, and no departed loved ones helping me to cross over. There was just me the observer watching my body sleep. Could it be that there were three of us: the observer “me” stuck in the hospital watching my body, the “me” recovering in the hospital bed, and a third “me” visiting Mom and Jim in heaven refusing to come back? I remembered my friend Vicky telling me about our different layers. I just remembered a few: the physical, astral, casual, celestial, and etheric. Or something like that. I think she said the etheric is closest to the physical so that would explain why I can still feel sensations that happen to my physical body like the defibrillator and the patch. She talked about the astral being the closest level to the spirit plane; maybe I was in my astral body. Maybe this “me” floating outside of my body was something altogether different. Something Vicky doesn’t even know about. I was so frustrated and confused. I couldn’t think of anything else that would keep me from wanting to wake up other than being with Mom and Jim again.

I watched as friends and co-workers stopped by with flowers and quick stories about what was happening in their lives and how they missed me and prayed for my recovery.

I walked around the hospital in observer mode for what seemed like days. I walked past the staff… unseen. Only a few patients could see me. I assumed they were on the edge of death. I sat with an elderly woman as she pointed out the relatives filling her room to help her cross. I couldn’t see any of them but said pleased to meet you as she introduced each member of her family that had passed. I was hoping that not seeing them was a good sign that I was more rooted with the living than the dead. I spent most of my time in the children’s ward telling stories to the few that could see me. I tried not to think about the fact that if they could see me, they might be dying. I couldn’t remember stories from my childhood, so I made some up. I was sure on some level they knew I was different from the staff. I hoped they wouldn’t ask questions. Questions I had no answers to.

Deciding that I couldn’t wait for my body to pull me back in, I took a running start and leaped onto the bed falling backward. I hoped the momentum would shove me back in my body. Instead, I went through my body as well as the bed and ended up on the floor underneath. I stared up at the bed frame and mattress. “I’m in hell, I thought. I’m sure of it. I’m doomed to watch myself for eternity.”

My next strategy was to lie on the bed. If I were a fragment of the Kate on the bed, maybe I could connect. Perhaps I would see what she was seeing, see what was keeping her from returning. I crawled out from underneath the bed. I’m sure I could have just risen through it, the same way I fell through it. It just felt normal to crawl Continue reading

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Archaic

Today’s prompt:
Archaic

Your work is your signature. I’m not sure who said that, but I saw it on a t-shirt last week. I agree with it wholeheartedly. Unfortunately, it seems archaic.

I’m experiencing just the opposite. I’m finding it harder to find team members that    take ownership or accountability. Instead of having confidence in the result, we  need 1/2 dozen signatures signing off on the final product because no one wants to take ownership or accountability.

I’m curious if anyone else is experiencing this.

 

Honor Yourself

DbZPNATU0AEp7o_I love the quote from Brenden Dilley in the image attached.

I’m sure most of you have heard people use an analogy based on the opening lines of the airlines’ “how to survive a crash” speech. It’s probably going off in your head now. “Put your mask on first and then assist your child or the person next to you acting like a child.”

The “put your mask on first” applies to your daily life as well as when you are waiting for “the oxygen mask to fall.” Just as you are no help to your child if you are passed out because you didn’t get your mask on time, you’re not as helpful to your family if your energy is spent and you are exhausted.

If you can afford it, I highly recommend regular massages. If you can’t, there are so many ways you can pamper yourself. Draw a nice lavender bath, take a walk in the woods, meditate or listen to a guided meditation, go to lunch or dinner with a friend, or just block out time to read a book from your favorite author. Better yet, take a nice long nap! I’m pretty sure the world will keep spinning if you don’t get X done today and you take a few moments for you!

Mallet

Today’s daily prompt Mallet reminded me to be mindful of watching for signs that I am repeating patterns. Do you ever find yourself saying “why does this keep happening?” When I find myself thinking What the? Again? I take a moment to see if there is a pattern. If there is a pattern, I try to figure out if there is a life lesson that is trying to hit me over the head like a mallet until I get it.

 

Mercury in retrograde

Mercury-retrograde

  • March 23 to April 15

I’m happy we are past Mercury in retrograde. I was telling a friend about the recent communication issues I have had as well as electronic issues. She mentioned Mercury was in retrograde. What?

Very interesting. The link above explains it better than I can. I am glad it passed. My wallet can’t handle another issue. My hot water heater and the heater to my house broke in the same weekend, both requiring replacement. Has anyone else experienced issues?

 

Amazon Best Seller!

I’m so excited that my free e-book Dog Inspired Lessons (for Humans) is ranked #1 in two categories on Amazon! It is #1 in Spiritual Healing and #1 in Motivational Growth and Spirituality.  Thank you for all of your support!

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06X3V8HCV

Amazon #1 Motivational & Spiritual comboIf you are a dog lover, this book is for you! Anyone that has a dog in their life knows they are all the better for it. Grab this insightful free book of dog-inspired lessons for humans and learn how easy it is to mirror your dog’s ability to let go, love unconditionally and live in the moment.

In our busy, work-filled lives, it’s easy to forget the simple things: love, loyalty, forgiveness, kindness, and faith. Some people will spend years searching for these vital elements, but author and animal-lover Joyce Kostakis found them a little closer to home: in her beloved dogs, Cooper and Max.

I have no doubt that each pet that shared their lives with me was God-guided into my life. It is perfect that dog is God spelled backward, it gives a dual meaning when I share the dog guided inspirational tales (tails) that taught me profound lessons in love, living in the moment, gratitude, and the power of forgiving and letting go.

I made a decision to apply the lessons learned while watching Cooper and Max interact on a day to day basis. The result was positive. I feel emulating them as taught me how to be a better person. It has taught me to be a better friend, coworker, sister, wife, and a pet owner. I decided to write this book to share my insights as well as provide a few photos to give you a smile in the process.

The book may be free, but the lessons are invaluable. Cooper and Max’s stories will melt your heart and change the way you see the world. Their loyalty, trust, and ability to live in the moment will inspire you to let go, enjoy life, be present and cherish every moment. This quick read will leave a long-lasting smile.

Dog Inspired Lessons for humans provides big life lessons with heart-warming photos that show us dogs aren’t just man’s best friend—they can be man’s (and woman’s!) best teacher too. Cooper’s ability to leave an abusive past behind and trust again will inspire you. Max’s pure joy and capacity to live in the moment will bring out your inner child.

Before you know it, you will find yourself recognizing these small blessings within your fur family, and your life will never be the same.

 

 

Don’t let the past ruin the present.

I think the saying time heals all wounds was meant to be soothing, but it can also be a double edge sword. Time can make you hold on to resentments. It can also keep you from giving people the opportunity to change, to see them in a different light. You continue to react to them based on their past behaviors setting up a continuous cycle. Waiting on time to heal your wound wastes the time you could have spent cherishing what precious time we have left. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. While you are letting “time” heal your wounds, you may lose the opportunity to bridge that friendship or relationship.

I never put much thought into the saying never go to bed angry until my brain bleed. What if the person you are mad at dies before you have forgiven them? What if someone dies before they have forgiven you? Things you wish you could have said or heard will never leave your lips or pass your ears. Moments you could have spent together during your cooling off period are lost forever.

I remember my sister telling me some ten years ago that she was afraid to make me mad because she was afraid I would cut her out of my life. Our parents had passed,

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A worthy four minutes

https://ift.tt/eA8V8J Facebook has been under fire in 2018 so far. It seems week after week another shot is blown to the social media giant whether it be about how it preys on people’s weaknesses or whether it be mass data breaches that cause everyone to re-think the information they are giving up about themselves. We […]

via This Unsettling 4-Minute Film Will Make You Re-Think Your Use Social Media — peoples trust toronto

Love who you are.

“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” ― Kurt Cobain

I love this quote. I saw it on twitter today. I agree it is much better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not. Stand in your integrity be authentic, and you will be loved for who you are. Not everyone will love “the true you.” So what. The people that see the real you and love you and all of your perceived flaws are the only people that matter. If someone doesn’t like the true you, they are not the right person to surround yourself with. This quote reminds me of new relationships.

I have a friend that becomes someone else every time she dates a new person. I think she is afraid no one will love her for who she is. Which, couldn’t be further from the truth. She is an amazing, smart, funny, interesting and beautiful woman. But for some reason, she feels she has to become a mirror of the person she is dating. What they like she likes, their favorite food becomes her favorite food. I’m sure you have known someone like that.

No one can sustain this for extended periods. She doesn’t see any of her friends because every free moment is spent with new guy. After a few months of dating, the “real” person starts to emerge, and the relationship becomes strained because the person she is dating can’t figure out why she has changed. Suddenly she doesn’t like to travel when the truth is she always hated traveling. She just acted like she loved it when they first started dating.

It is so important to be your authentic self when you are dating or starting a new relationship. I think marriages and relationships wouldn’t break as often if we showed the new person who we were from day one, not who we think they want us to be. We get each other to fall in love with some different version that we couldn’t possibly sustain. I’d rather be loved for who I am, not who I pretend to be for someone else. Let them run for the hills if who I am doesn’t interest them. The right person will come along and love all the things that made Mr. or Mrs. Not Right run for the hills.

When we try to be someone we are not to please the person we are dating we are cheating them, ourselves as well as the potential love we could have found who can love all that we are.

New Study Links Pet Deaths And Cancer To ‘Over-Vaccinating’ ~ March 31, 2018

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Thanks to Prepare For Change for this one!

Vaccinating cats and dogs can cause a range of diseases and disorders – including autism – and veterinarians are often guilty of “over-prescribing vaccines to maximize profits“, according to a new study published by a U.S. Veterinary journal. 

Annual vaccinations have been a cash cow, for vaccine companies and Vets, for many years now. However, according to a group of vets, this revenue is created under false and misleading science and the unnecessary vaccinations are seriously detrimental to the health of our pets.

A group of Vets has also issued a Health Warning, advising pet owners to stop lining the pockets of vaccine companies:

The present practice of marketing vaccinations for companion animals may constitute fraud by misrepresentation, fraud by silence and theft by deception.

 As far as Big Pharma are concerned, a fool and his…

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